Unapologetically Alive

Music always helps me get by. It carries my soul over all the bad thresholds of life.

So here is ALANIS MORISSETTE's "So pure" and the Lyrics.

You from new york you are so relevant
You reduce me to cosmic tears
Luminous more so than most anyone
Unapologetically alive knot in my stomach
And lump in my throat
I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
Supposed former infatuation junkie
I sink three pointers and you ask poetically
I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression
Let's grease the wheel over tea
Let's discuss things in confidence
Let's be outspoken let's be ridiculous
Let's solve the world's problems
I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance
So pure such an expression


Been a lot of dancin this week. Lot of Halloween Parties. My parents had one at the new remodeled club. It totally looks very Asian Persuasion. Every time I'm over there I get a craving for some Lo Mien or coconut chicken...maybe an egg-roll..oh crap now I'm hungry. Mom and Dad sorta went wack a do and bought up more of the sim to make an all around zen feel. I know you want to check it out and come play greedy with me and my fam..you are so welcome too. Here is the surl. http://slurl.com/secondlife/Hidden%20Paradise/174/74/22





So its the day after Halloween and I have to say I got very few trick or treaters here..thats pretty fail. Plus I might have ate my weight in mini snickers..blergh.
I ended up in H E double hocky sticks during one of the halloween parties. I was invited by Tymmerie Thorne who has one of the best blogs SL. Here is a link to her blog. http://www.girlwonderspeaks.com/
Where yours truly is mentioned. It was great fun and the music was amazin. Word.

Overview of Hell

I also came in 2nd place at the O karaoke Lounge Costume Contest. I was, well my tradmark name. Gangsta Geist. If ever I was a rapper or dj in sl..that would be my name. So I decided to be that for Halloween as well. My "story" is that I was a mobster that was back stabbed to death by one of her own thugs....back from the dead..I'm out for revenge...I am.....The Gangster Poltergeist...aka Gangsta Geist. LOL....Yea I'm that nerdy.






I also got to take my itty bitty sister the one and only Evie Biscuits trick or treating. Our first stop was the neighborhood of Pleasantville. The houses were decorated so perfect and each house had a candy bowl. Evie was a pumpkin. Always adorable. Dad came along as well and was a Gangsta puppy..lol. We also went to Larnie sim and did a Halloween Hunt and went into a Haunted house..where a witch tried to eat Dad...lol. Pictures done by Evie





Remember how I talked about Mystery Science Theater 3000? Its ok..well I did on a previous blog. I love that show and the other day my friend Michael along with Cessuss (I'll call him a friend too but I'll use it a little more loosly..haha)Well anyways..we watched either the movie or one of the episodes. I love that stuff. Cause when my Fam and I watch a movie we crack on it so bad. So the worst the movie the more fun it is. We have this really cool drive in theater at home. It is my favorite place on the whole sim. After we watched MST3K, I remembered there was a sim with the MST3K on it. So I tped Michael and Cessus and I think Justice..who couldnt get her quicktime to work. :( The place was really neat. While there, a huge dragon was trying to come into the entrance door and Cessus told it in local it was too fat a dragon to get it. He is such a nerd. I like to beat him just for good measure.


Michael and I sat up front with the robots. I took a picture..notice our shirts? Its my face. Michael made them..pretty rad huh? My dad also made me a shirt too. I'm loved. :)

This is the one my Daddy did.

I was thinking about changing the amount you see a new blog per week. Maybe smaller blogs more often. Id like for the month of November to blog once a day. Another change starting very soon. Celeste and I are going to start a on going fictional story. So look for that homeys..Yep I'm 1990's Gangster like dat..

Leave me to pick up the pieces

Lyrics the the first song you will hear when your read my blog right now.
Florence and the machine "Blinding"

Seems that I have been held in some dreaming state
A tourist in the waking world, never quite awake
No kiss, no gentle word could wake me from this slumber
Until I realized that it was you who held me under

Felt it in my fist, in my feet, in the hollows of my eyelids
Shaking through my skull, through my spine and down through my ribs

No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone
No more calling like a crow for a boy, for a body in the garden
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong one

And I could hear the thunder and see the lightning crack
All around the world was waking, I never could go back
'Cause all the walls of dreaming, they were torn wide open
And finally it seemed that the spell was broken

And all my bones began to shake, my eyes flew open
And all my bones began to shake, my eyes flew open

No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone
No more calling like a crow for a boy, for a body in the garden
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong one

Snow White's stitching like a circuitboard
It's like I'm slipping through the hidden door
Snow White's stitching like a circuitboard

No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone
No more calling like a crow for a boy, for a body in the garden
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love
No more dreaming like a girl so in love with the wrong one

Snow White's stitching like a circuitboard
It's like I'm slipping through the hidden door
Snow White's stitching like a circuitboard
It's like I'm slipping through the hidden door

Get online and change your status and talk to your family and friends..they miss and care about you. Don't run and hide. You are NOT your illness.. Your stronger than that..or I fucking hope so..for your sake.

or just keep doing what your doing....and leave me to explain.
That's really white of ya.
Thanks.

Cant be bothered with it. (I hate that saying now FYI)

So Its almost Halloween..and there are tons of parties to go too.. should be fun.
Evie my little sister..who I love tons and bunches...and yours truly decided to kick off the holiday right by being scary dollies...deviant ones at that..BOO!!!


I cant type like things are ok...cause they so aren't.....( sad face )



Oh...I'm trying to keep it together. I am keeping it together.
You're all wanting to know what happened.
So am I.
Your such good friends.
I'm so...lost.
Yep he broke up with me. Its still a blur.
My profile still says takin by Tonk....
I tried to erase it..
But this feeling inside is so overwhelming..I just cant.
Am I waiting for him to come scrub the memory of me out of his profile first?
This is the worst break up I've ever had...
Probably because I never really let myself hurt from Breaking up with Dustin.
Yea..Id say Im pretty fail at this moment.
It would be nice to stay friends...but when I tried with Dustin..he called me a succumbs that make men fall in love with them just to dump them.
Yea that's something that sticks with you..forever. I cant shake the thought.
I wanted to blog before now...but I just haven't.
I can't say I didnt see it coming...............................................................................................................................................................................................................ugh.........................................................................................................................................fuck........................................................................................I hate.....fuck I dont even know what I hate......I JUST DO.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................I deal with stuff like a damn child...........................................................................................................................................................................................ok.....enough.....this is my blog this week..its dumb.

The far end of far away (lol) Lil

Ok..so I have to say this..every Friday is not working out for a new blog..it was before..it aint now...so I'll just say this...you'll see a blog once a week..probably on Mondays. In RL we are doing alot of inventory junk..thank god I'm more organized in rl than in my sl inventory...but I do have a dream one day of having a very organized sl inventory...one day....trails off a second to fantasize about it...Uh..um...what..oh yea I'm writing a blog sorry. So I was loving my SL job...Being a Host for the teen club The Church was really fun..really really bummed out it closed. Oh a bright note though. Arale is going to open a new teen club soon..and its a rad roller rink..what what. So I'll just host there. The last day I worked as host Kyra gave us all rubber duckies and lolly pops..Grace swung hers around so hard it knocked my hat over my eyes..lol.



Did I tell you I LOVE taking photos in sl? Oh yea i said that last blog..well I do..me and Lex are playing around with the idea of doing it as a business in sl. Admittedly Lex is way better than me but I'm getting better. We both are some creative fools. Look at this one Lex did of me and her...its hilarious.




No Drama Late Night Talk Show is becoming Legit. Word up. Tonk rebuilt the set and its on its own land..woot. We are trying to keep the show fun and easy fresh and breezy..
We are still working out times to have it..Maybe twice a week would be good. Here is me and Celeste in the Hot seat and Michael was the Host. If you like or think you would like to try your hand at improv or want to watch some silliness IM me and I will add you to the group and you can get a notice to when the shows are happening.



We had an after party the other night after a show..where we crunk danced to Queen and other music videos. That's me Carl and Icarus breakin bad on Llama and Celeste's table.




New Feature on Cute as a Button's blog. Public Service Announcement called Lessons Learned.






I'd also like to thank everyone for coming to my rl bday party in sl..that was awesome. I totally was surprised and had a blast. Thank you Arale Dymond and Tonk for pulling it off. Also thank you all for such great gifts. Here are a few pictures. I was having such a good time I didnt think to really shoot to many.










Ok till next time... :D

Let's go all the way tonight

I feel like the world is mine and yours at this moment. I love you Tonk.



You think I'm pretty
Without any makeup on
You think I'm funny
When I tell the punch line wrong
I know you get me
So I let my walls come down
Down

Before you met me I was alright but things
Were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February, you'll be my valentine
Valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I, we'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now, baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I, we'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now, baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight (tonight)

You make me
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now, baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
Don't ever look back,
Don't ever look back.

I'mma get your heart racing
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight (tonight)

Blue Waffles....that's what's for Breakfast.

I've been messing around in GIMP and Photo Shop alot. Takin Pictures of my friends and family. Thought I would share some with you. And if you ever want me to do one of you. All you gots to do is ask homey. :)

My dad

Celeste & Llama

Justice

Chicky my cuzzin

I finally got to play some chess in sl. My friend Max and I found one. I made him promise not to let me win...and lol..he kept that promise. I love to play games..but rarely am I good at it..lol



I also got to do something I love...sit and watch sl tv...yea seems really lazy but its good fun. What made it better was getting to watch it with Vlad the Rad..yea that's whats up.




Been to alot of openings of stores and clubs lately. Went to the opening of Pulse where my friend Shawty and Tinchy own a shopping center. They had a Party at their Grand Opening.



My parents opened Club Quintensence this last week. Had a really wonderful live singer named Antonio Galloway. He's a jazz singer. Who will sing spider man theme if you ask..ha.



The new teen Club The Church of Serenity has also opened as well.. I work there as a host now. If your a teen, they have music every weekday and Sunday 6-8slt and a themed event Saturdays 8-10slt. Last two I went to was Jocks and Cheerleaders and Redneck Party. If your a dj or host message me inworld and will direct you to the right peeps.
Next Saturdays Theme...Freaks and Geeks. So be thinking of your look..there is aways alot of Linden to win.

So I always find myself over at Celeste's and Llama's house. Alot of us do. lol. I drag whoever I'm hanging out with over and the conversation is well...a colorful spectrum of nonsense. Which is right up my alley.

The other night we had our first "Official" No Drama Llama Late Night Talk Show. Its basically improv with friends and a goofy lookin set...but its funnery at its finest. That night we were educated on so many things. If I thought scrubbing my brain with bleach would uneducate me of what a blue waffle was...I would soak a really long q-tip and go to work. *Pukes a little*





I'm not sure how it started but Tonk and I decided we wanted to dress up like a 1950's couple. So we went on a hunt for the looks we wanted. We were looking for a Pompadore for Tonk. lol..Once he tried on the demo it hit me...he looked a little less like James dean and more like Roy Orbison...hahahahaha...




Speaking of look alikes. lol...when we had the Redneck themed party at The Church. I swear Tonk (sans the mustach) looked like a teen Brett Micheals.





Since I'm pokin fun..I guess I could poke fun at myself. Here is a pic of me in all my redneck glory. Notice the dead tooth in my mouth..please becareful..cause I super glued that one back in and the others wiggle if I breath to heavy...yea you know its sexy.



Side note.

I just wanted to say. I love you all. Truly. You make my secondlife great.